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Pictures to words to pictures

Posted in Observations, Personal, Writing on August 19, 2008 by schizophrenicconversations

Writing for me is a chance to get the images out of my head and onto paper in some sort of descriptive way. I cannot draw, paint nor accurately prepare music. I cannot create life through animation nor envelope a soul in emotional speech. My only chance for creative liberation is through prose and text.

However the interesting part is not the in exact idea which is fed to letters and words (no matter the merit and sacrifice entwined with the origins) but how those are in turn translated by the minds eye of the interpreter. A very easy exercise to undertake yet still illustrates the quite interesting truth lies in simple experience. If I mention cat, what first enters your mind? A simple tabby, a fun calico or a majestic Siamese? These simple twists and turns of interpretations mixed with personal experiences assemble a wide variety of variable cocktails effectively making writing not only a tool of the mind of the originator, but of that of the interpreter.

This may seem like a stumbling block at first, deciding how to elaborate on a subject so the reader is thinking the same thing as the writer, but the magic comes from where the reader must fill in the blanks of description. Where the reader must piece together the features of a protagonists face, or the meadow in which he stands. Or if we stretch this fiction further, how about the undescribed or even mentioned features. Perhaps the readers mind places birds in that meadow, or the sounds of various insects. Again the readers personal experiences play an intense part. When you thought of the meadow, were there crickets or perhaps a rush of wind? Was there the trace scent of roses or maybe lilocs or in another extreme, manure from a farmers field? How many of those scents did you just attempt to draw from your memory? I am gleaming with delight as you read this, thinking of how you look right now, running through your mind, mining for experiences in your memory to fulfill your interpretaions. Was the grass green or the wheat yellow? Did you just see that butterfly tumble by?

Thus you begin to see how this cocktail of variables will create a personalized drink for each and every mind to draw from. There is so much beauty in this, in its unfathomable complexity. So much changes when pictures in a mind become words which then become pictures in another mind. A chaotic dance of dynamic connections.

Shameless Self Promotion

Posted in Personal, Writing on May 6, 2008 by schizophrenicconversations

Well, with another term of school behind me, I can make an attempt at writing again. I’m not sure how it will go as I do feel my writing ability has deteriorated quite a bit the last while as all I have worked on is mathematics. It scares me because it’s the only creative cathartic activity I have been able to take part in. Well, here is my very old stuff for a gander, I’ll try to get to work on a new piece soon, I promise!

http://shadowssmile.deviantart.com/

I’m gonna die in a place that don’t know my name.

Posted in Personal on December 22, 2007 by schizophrenicconversations

Writing atrophy seems to be an appropriate description of what my mind has undertaken in present times. A seeming degradation of ability with a lapse of creativity have vexed me terribly. I am currently taking that as a charge to renew what I used to have, assuming I have anything to start from.

Mathematics has been my only language in the past while. Flexing the muscles of differentiation and linear algebra became the daily routine, while forgetting to even stretch out literary creativity. Number crunches took the place of poetry, integrals enveloped short stories and matrices swallowed novels. This has left a massive deficit in my mind, a hole that has grown to proportions beyond the quantification of the systems of communication in the mathematical lingo.

The title was chosen very specifically, as it pertains to the topic of discussion to the utmost. If my writing ability were to whither entirely, I would not know what to call it anymore. The poor wretch would die in a place which could not name it if it wanted to. I am choosing consciously to intervene and, with high hopes, resuscitate this close friend of expression.

Wish me luck, for as with any muscle regaining use or bloodflow, it may be done with great pains.

Back To Writing

Posted in Personal on November 22, 2007 by schizophrenicconversations

Ah yes, third time is a charm correct? It’s odd how many things must reach an age of 3 before they are offered a cliche or title. For example my above statement, 3 strikes for baseball, 3 goals for a hat-trick or Mark Twain’s “There are 3 kinds of lies: Lies, Damned Lies and Statistics. But I digress, here is my return, let’s see how it goes.